What were the disciples thinking when they each left the upper room on the night Jesus was betrayed. In this series, I am attempting to examine the thoughts of each disciple based on their experience, personality and background. Today, we can examine James — the lesser — and what he could have thought on that night.
“What a strange evening. These past several weeks have been quite unusual. I can tell Jesus is distressed and burdened – especially since arriving in Jerusalem. Something is going down and I can’t put a finger on it. I haven’t felt this troubled since that time we were in Caesarea Philippi. Peter, James and John were up on a mountain with Jesus when we were confronted by a man who had a son possessed by an evil spirit. No matter how hard we tried, we couldn’t drive it out. When Jesus returned, the boy with the evil spirit saw Jesus and immediately began to convulse, roll on to the ground and began foaming at the mouth. Believe me, it was a frightening scene.
The father pleaded with Jesus to take pity and help them which Jesus replied, “Everything is possible for him who believes.” And you know what the father said? “I do believe – help me overcome my unbelief.” Jesus healed the boy and drove out the evil spirit. A type of evil spirit, Jesus said, that can only be driven out through prayer.
It was only days later, on our way to Capernaum, when Jesus told us, the Son of Man is going to be betrayed into the hands of men. They will kill him and after three days, he will rise. We didn’t understand what he meant and were too afraid to ask, but his words certainly have been in the back of my mind.
Still, I’m frightened with what Jesus said tonight. I do believe Jesus is the Messiah, but my heart is troubled. That is why the words of the father of the demon-possessed boy still ring with me today. I believe that Jesus is the Son of God and I pray for God to help me overcome my unbelief. But I also remember what Jesus said to the father – everything is possible for him who believes. With that in mind, I trust that Jesus has everything under control and that God’s will be done.”