The disciples had gathered in the upper room for the Passover celebration. They were in Jerusalem for a purpose, but the disciples had not really fathomed the real reason. Jesus had just announced that he was going to be betrayed to the shock of them all — including Judas Iscariot who couldn’t believe that Jesus knew what he had already done. Then, Jesus broke the bread and said, ‘This is my body” and passed the cup saying, “This is my blood of a new covenant.” With all this being shared, I wonder what each disciple thought as they left the upper room that night. This time, I wonder what Judas Iscariot have thought. Perhaps he would have said this,
“You know, it wasn’t supposed to be like this. This is not what I signed up for when I became a disciple of Rabbi Jesus. I thought he was going to be our Messiah. I followed him for the past several years and I positioned myself to one of his twelve disciples so when the time came for Jesus to be the King, I would be given a prominent position in the new order.
But it certainly doesn’t seem like that’s going to happen. There’s no strategy to overthrow the Romans. He’s nowhere close of being the Messiah he claims to be. And he’s certainly not the Savior our people have been hoping for. I’ve never been more disappointed in all my life.
Now, there are times when you have to take matters into your own hands. We can’t afford to have rabbis like Jesus claiming to be the Messiah and then do nothing about it. So, I made an agreement with the chief priests to hand him over. I mean, what’s the worst that can happen? The Sanhedrin has no authority to kill him – even though I’m sure they want to – and besides, it’s against the law. Only the Romans can sentence someone to death. They’ll just warn him, perhaps rough him up a bit and send him on his way.
Maybe if Jesus gets arrests, it will prompt him to be the Messiah everyone expects him to be.
O.k., o.k! I got thirty pieces of silver to turn over Jesus to the Sanhedrin. And all I have to do is kiss him in the Garden of Gethsemane. Big deal! What’s the harm in that? That’s a normal greeting and nobody will know the difference. Nobody will suspect me… that is, except Jesus. He knows it’s me. I can tell. But to call me a betrayer, c’mon! I’ve been just as loyal as the next disciple.
Look, if Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God as he claims to be, then why doesn’t he just establish the kingdom of our people, just like the prophets foretold, and run the Romans out of town and be done with it! If he can’t do that, then he’s no Savior of mine – and I’ve wasted my time.”